| Fight Club, Chuck Palahniuk. |
[Nov. 21st, 2009 ~ 10:38 pm] |
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In the house on Paper Street, a police detective stated calling about my condominium explosion, and Tyler stood with his chest against my shoulder, whispering into my ear while I held the phone to the other ear, and the detective asked if I knew anyone who could make homemade dynamite. "Disaster is a natural part of my evolution," Tyler whispered, "toward tragedy and dissolution." I told the detective that it was the refrigerator that blew up my condo. "I'm breaking my attachment to physical power and possessions,' Tyler whispered, "because only through destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit." The dynamite, the detective said, there were impurities, a residue of ammonium oxalate and potassium perchloride that might mean the bomb was homemade, and the dead bolt on the front door was shattered. I said I was in Washington, D.C., that night. The detective on the phone explained how someone had sprayed a canister of Freon into the dead-bolt lock and then tapped the lock with a cold chisel to shatter the cylinder. This is the way criminals are stealing bicycles. "The liberator who destroys my property," Tyler said, "is fighting to save my spirit. The teacher who clears all possessions from my path will set me free." The detective said whoever set the homemade dynamite could've turned on the gas and blown out the pilot lights on the stove days before the explosion took place. The gas was just the trigger. It would take days for the gas to fill the condo before it reached the compressor at the base of the refrigerator and the compressor's electric motor set off the explosion. "Tell him," Tyler whispered. "Yes, you did it. You blew it all up. That's what he wants to hear." |
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| two hundred eighty-five |
[Nov. 18th, 2009 ~ 07:26 pm] |
OH MY GOSH.
This is completely random, but I just realized that cello guy from HSM = MATT. HAHAHAH. Awesome. (Also, this movie really makes me miss NSB.)
I promise I'm not mood swinging. I'm just watching HSM because it makes me feel better. Thanks for your love and concern; I appreciate it. ♥ |
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| Mid-November Update |
[Nov. 18th, 2009 ~ 01:11 am] |
( #1-59 )
60. Shadow’s Edge – Brent Weeks 61. Homeland – R.A. Salvatore 62. Exile – R.A. Salvatore 63. Pyramids – Terry Pratchett 64. Sojourn – R.A. Salvatore |
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| Kindred by Octavia Butler |
[Nov. 16th, 2009 ~ 10:26 am] |
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He had written and published three novels, he told me, and outside members of his family, he'd never met anyone who'd read one of them. They'd brought so little money that he'd gone on taking mindless jobs like this one at the warehouse, and he'd gone on writing—unreasonably, against the advice of saner people. He was like me—a kindred spirit crazy enough to keep on trying. |
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| two hundred eighty-two |
[Nov. 15th, 2009 ~ 08:07 pm] |
So, the last few weeks (months?) there have been times when I feel like I've been getting sick, but it's never really dissolved into anything sick-like, so I don't know if there's something living in me, waiting for my immune system to go wonky (that sounds kind of gross, doesn't it?), or what, but this weekend I've been feeling kind of under the weather. I mean, I've been able to do my normal routine, but I get wiped out really easily, and today we think I might have started running a fever. I don't usually get freaked out unless I start running a fever, you know? So we'll see. I took Tylenol at about 7, but I still feel kind of hot. And I have had this just dull headache with me all day and I don't think it's due to lack of sleep or stress or whatever - it feels like the headache you have when you get sick.
Even if I am sick, I hope it doesn't stay forever. I have a lot to do this week. Sigh. First up, working from 7 - 3 tomorrow. We'll see how that goes. I need to talk to my boss about my future there. Hmm.
Showering, boyfriend time on phone, and sleeping. Guh. This sucks.
p.s.: My red velvet cupcakes were amazing. :) |
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| two hundred eighty-one |
[Nov. 14th, 2009 ~ 08:27 pm] |
A random list of things that freak me out, for no apparent reason:
-When I'm driving and people honk at me. Most of the time, it's for other reasons than my driving, but it always makes me think I'm doing something wrong, or that I'm about to, you know, get smashed by a truck or something, and... yeah, that always unnerves me.
-Disaster movies. I can't do them. Yeah, they're movies, and they're supposed to be fiction, but... if we're going to have to live through it anyway, why do we have to make a form of entertainment to watch one person's interpretation of it? Really?
-When I walk into my house and no one else is home and it's dark, but the TV's on. I don't know why that bothers me so much but it really sets me on guard. (Like right now. I bet you anything my cousins ran out and forgot to turn off the TV. WHYYYYY. That's like, the most money that you spend on electricity.) It bothers me even more when it's a blank screen.
-Bees. *shudder*
-Pictures of things that look like they have holes in them (this is hard to explain, but the best example I can give is what hyaline cartilage - it's a type of cartilage that you can find in your ear - looks like under a microscope. [I'm talking about the bottom part of the picture. When I had to do this for A&P it freaked me out every time.) Seriously, it like, gives me the heebie jeebies and I get goosebumps all over my body and it's just... ugh.
I don't even know why I made this list. It was probably because I heard the TV on in my cousins' room. Alas. Now I need to go turn it off for my own sanity.
In other news, still have lots to do and still unsure of exactly what I should do. Too cold to hang laundry, pointless to cook banana bread, do not want to start a mind map or the NIH stroke scale study thingy. I'm thinking, though, if I make the cupcakes tomorrow, I might harass myself. We'll see. I guess packing looks like the most realistic thing right now... that and trying to get a mind map out of the way. (Did make the chicken parm, though. Yum.)
Also? My dad IMs me telling me 'mom says she hasn't heard from her sissy' (sissy = me), so I tell them to Skype me (the reception in my room is crap unless I stand like, away from my computer and my TV and my bed), and they do, and then my mom like, talks to me for like, five minutes and is like "okay, bye." It's a good thing I talked to her, though. I had a dream on Wednesday night that she died, and I couldn't stop crying in my dream, and I think I woke up crying. So yeah, realistically I should have called her on Thursday. No excuses. Sigh.
(I still have the chills from that picture. Ugh.)
I shouldn't even be procrastinating in this journal. Alas. Love to all. ♥ |
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| two hundred eighty |
[Nov. 14th, 2009 ~ 11:13 am] |
It's only 11:15 am, and so far, I have:
-done a few loads of laundry -done the CalNoc... tutorial, I guess, on pressure ulcers (ewww) -made myself breakfast (and eaten it)... garlic fried rice, Vienna sausage, and scrambled eggs. The joys of being Filipino. :D -finally cleared the clogged drain in my bathroom sink -cleared out some stuff to take back to Riverside -started packing for Riverside
I have to shower and stuff, and then I'm meeting Esther for a project we have to do in a few weeks (you see, it's totally critical care week this week). After that, depending on when I get back, I'm going to church, doing one more load of laundry, making red velvet cupcakes and/or banana bread (there are some sad looking bananas that know they want to get made into yummy banana bread), and possibly chicken parmigiana, but that's a little ambitious. I'm making something with chicken, though.
Oh yeah, I gotta finish packing for Riverside and do my epi homework. And maybe, just maybe, I might get started on a mind map for Friday. Or the NIH stroke study, but that sucks up four hours of my time. Alas.
And of course, since I like to multitask, if anyone wants a muse for a party thread, let me know. I'll try and get something started. |
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| monster island; david wellington |
[Nov. 11th, 2009 ~ 11:16 pm] |
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"Give me your wretched dead, yearning to devour, your shambling masses. Give me. That was what they were thinking, wasn't it? The living dead over there on the island. If there was any spark left in their brains, any thought possible, to decayed neurons it was this: give me. Give me. Give me your life, your warmth, your flesh. Give me." |
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